Those whom know me well, are not shocked at my choice. "Filtering" was left on the hospital ER floor with the rest of my "old self" back in 2010.
This is not necessarily a bad thing, though, unless, of course, you are not ME! For ME, I find it refreshing to speak my mind openly, honestly, no-holds barred....and if....or ok, WHEN I offend, it is never intentional, but it is ALWAYS honest, with the best of intentions......and, we all KNOW what road is paved with those BEST INTENTIONS.
For the "NOT-ME's" in my world, it goes something like a 'Fart in Church.' Leaves some speechless and holding their breath.....
Luckily, I continue to find my old filter now and again. Sometimes, a bit late to the party, but ALWAYS with the best shoes.....
In realizing this, I have also realized a sense of FREEDOM that comes with it. The "OLD ME", was always accommodating, rarely ever said NO to anyone's requests. As imagined, an undue amount of stress came with each "YES" provided.
No longer do I succumb to the pressures of being involved in 22 different organizations or fund raisers or events or causes - I get to choose what matters! I get to CHOOSE. Involved in something that begins to cause undue stress....step aside (especially if another person 'feels' they can handle it better ---by all means---take the reigns). But, otherwise, I. GET.TO.CHOOSE.
See, part of it comes from the whole "lost my mind" gig, but most of it comes from the "age and maturity" gig. My sister always refers to it as the "been there, done that, got the T-shirt to prove it" mode.
I get to be SELECTIVE with my time and my energy. Well, maybe 'GET' is too strong of a word. I 'HAVE' to be selective with my time and energy. I only have so many productive waking hours in a day before my mind completely shuts down.
Yes, most of the time, after a nap, the mind will reboot automatically......but sometimes that battery just doesn't recharge quickly enough. So, I am forced to choose.
However ----- ready----this is GREAT NEWS!
Great? Yes, GREAT!!!
I have a new-found freedom in choosing what I WANT to spend my energy on, instead of feeling like I HAVE to be involved in it all.
REFRESHING!!
This may seem trivial to many. However, let me assure you that the day this GLORIOUS light shines upon you - the choir WILL sing a heavenly song! And , you will remember this post. And you will SMILE a smile like NEVER BEFORE!
I remind my kids everyday they leave for school to "Make good Choices". I take this in stride as I try to make the same. I invite you to this challenge as well!!!
